Thursday, October 27, 2011
I have so many cool stories to share. So many people I love are pitching in. This is such a wonderful opportunity to teach my children about service, charity, love, sharing and sacrifice. Thank you all so much for being the examples I need to encourage my kids to be the people I expect them to become.
Here's a really special story I wanted to share, this story is from a sweet family friend in Texas. Her husband is in school and they have very little money right now. They live on a very tight budget, and only had $20.00 to give. Looking at the large $100,000 I need to get treatment they thought their donation was going to be to small. So my dear friend the creative mother she is, took the $20.00 went to the store and bought stuff for a bake sale and lemonade stand. She and her children stood outside in the hot sun all day and sold lemonade. So they could earn more money for our family. At the end of the long day they were able to triple their money. They were so excited about what they had done.
What an amazing teaching opportunity this was. When I heard of the sacrifice and love this sweet family showed for us, it was almost unbearable to hear. I'm still in tears.
This is sacred money. I know this... and I am so grateful.
I have many, many more stories like this one I will be sharing
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Every time there's something going on in my life that I get nervous about, like leaving for Houston soon to meet with Dr. Burzynski I need to write. I've kept a journal since I was a young girl. To me, it's cheap therapy.
The one thing I can say that I've learned through ALL of this is, I have learned the meaning of FAITH.
Last year a dear friend asked me to give a talk in church. I said nervously "on what?" he said something you probably know a lot about. Considering everything your going through with your baby and her problems... On FAITH. I thought to my self, Huh... well that will be easy, I have lots of faith. I know my savior lives, I know he died for our sins, I know where I've been before this life and where I'm going after I die. I know what faith is. I have great faith.
9 months went by when I found out I was struggling with faith. "PURE TRUE FAITH",... probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to learn in life. It was the hardest letting go right before I went into brain surgery. I didn't know if I was going to come out of that alive... letting go.
I just want you all to know what it's like being a mother of 4 young children. What I struggle with. Not knowing how much longer I have here with my family. Every day's hard to get through with out bawling.
Faith doesn't make things easy, just possible. Because of faith I have peace. I am finally just now at peace, with my self and this horrible situation.
I know,.. It's not my will. It is His will. You know, that's always been easy for me to say to people. But think for one second if the tables where turned and it was you? If it were your family, or your child. Your children losing their Mother or Father or your husband losing his best friend. Would it be so easy to have FAITH???
Would you be angry if you lost a loved one?Would you panic? would you worry? would you cry imagining your little ones without a Mother? or Father?...I did, I did... until I excepted the Lords plan for me. I don't understand it. But, I except it. Now I'm at peace. I KNOW that if I stay here on this beautiful earth, or If I go, it is his plan...which is a perfect plan. One we don't know why or understand at the time... we can't see the big picture. We don't need to know all the answers right now. I know some day we will. After we return home with our Father in Heaven.
My plan goes a whole lot differently than this ones going. Prayers are being said, priesthood blessings I have had, and the temple we attend often. The Lord KNOWS my heart, my fears and my worries.
FAITH=TRUST and I trust my Heavenly Father completely.
This is the hardest lesson I've learned on my journey through cancer, so far...
I am VERY controlling when it comes to my family. As any mother would be. We have to learn to let go.
Have FAITH have trust and all will be well.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Today I got a message from a dear friend in my home town Santa Barbara. She is spreading the word about muffins for mommy, helping one mother at a time defeat cancer! With the help of friends and my brother JASUN we can NOT go wrong!
Here's a little something some of you might not know about me... I was born and raised in Santa Barbara Calif. daughter of Glen and Kathleen Carter. One of 5 children. Jasun is the oldest then me, my sister Heather, Elijah and Zacariah. I love BIG families, they keep you humble.
I went to Cold Springs elementary school, Santa Barbara JR high and Santa Barbara high school. My sweetest memories are of my childhood. Roaming the streets freely in Montecito. The good old days. I love my dear friends I grew up with. We still keep in touch.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Our rummage sale was the sale of the year! I could not believe our turn out. We had so many donations it was insane. The volunteers at the Goodwill said where in the world did all this stuff come from? I told them it came from families all over our community that want to see a mother get better for her family. They were excited because not only did it help us but it also went to a great cause afterwards.
There are so many I want to thank. Those that donated, sorters, family that drove all night for support, people with tables, the cute girl scouts that had a bake sale and raised $140.00. A special sister that drove around with me all night hanging signs, letting me freak out cause the stress became to unbearable and taking my children so I could work. Those that showed up at 5:00am on a Sat. friends that stayed to clean up, neighbors from the cul-de-sac, fathers that stayed home with children so their wives could help and vice versa.
But there is one person who made it all possible. One that took charge and handled everything, one I could depend on for anything. She has healed me with a healthy kale shake since the day we found out I was sick. With her sister by her side to lift her heavy load. Chandra Miner. Thank you, love to you sister.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
I want to say thank you to ALL those who have been donating. And helping too today. This is a major project. But with the help of good friends we will get through this! My courtyard is filled with good stuff!
This has been so great because it keeps my mind off things. I feel good when I'm busy. Thank you for keeping me so busy!
Chandra Miner, I'm going to snap that picture of you when you least expect it.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Today I truly felt my Saviors love. I got to meet some of the most beautiful people I've ever met in my life. Although NEVER meeting me or my family before, these women at SWEET CHIC HAIR BOUTIQUE in Ladera Ranch wrapped their arms around me and offered their help beyond measure.
There are pretty women in this world. Then there are beautiful women in this world. These women's spirits radiate with beauty from the inside out.
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Thank you to the vendors of this awesome boutique for allowing us to set up a table. This is a great group of women that live in Ladera Ranch. Every month or so they put on an open house with local boutiques.
We'll be selling our cute muffins made by Friends of Amee for donation. Be sure to come say hello!
Monday, October 17, 2011
Wow!! We just saw our family photos taken by Tiffany Portraits and I'm in love! I wanted some photos of us wearing all white in an open field and she captured it perfectly! I felt like I was in heaven being there with my sweet family, with the sun setting, the perfect weather, it was all magical. Tiffany is such a amazing photographer. She works miracles. While I was in the hospital I got a small glimpse of what heaven looks like. And this...I'm telling you, is exactly what I saw. Tiffany is the best around. If you haven't seen her work go to her website and book with her. "I PROMISE" you wont be disappointed. My family and I will cherish these photos forever. I know that on the days I am feeling down these will help lift my spirits. I'm so happy!
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
"My name is Emilee Perry, my mom has brain cancer. Would you like to buy a muffin for donation? The money will go for her charity." This is what my daughter and son, Stirling did today after school. My little crew of children and their friends set out in the neighborhood to sell our homemade muffin magnets. They've been begging me for days now asking when they'd be able to do it so today was the day.
Many of the neighbors don't even know that I have brain cancer. Some, after they gave a nice donation came running back to give more after they read the flyer and were more clear with the situation. Some other neighbors came over to my house after to offer babysitting or anything. I'm overwhelmed by the support.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
I am a mother of four small children and married to my best friend. I love my Saturdays in the garden with my babies and finding new recipes for the barbque. Recently... after the birth of my little Lilee I found out that I have stage 2 astrocytoma brain cancer.